Yesterday I felt mean. Do you ever have days like that? I wasn’t mean, but it took a lot of self control. Ok, so I did make a couple of unnecessary comments….mostly I just smiled on the outside when I knew I could feel so much better if I could breathe fire just once, fan someone’s flames—anyone, no one in particular. I had absolutely no reason to be out of sorts. I just was.

My friend, Karen, has her own private coffee pot and gourmet coffee stash at work. I am blessed to be invited into her sanctuary in the mornings. In fact, if I don’t go, she usually brings me a cup later! Now THAT’s a good friend. (Thank you, Karen, for everything. Coffee in the morning; chocolate in the afternoon, conversation….that pretty much covers it all.)

At Karen’s Coffee Bar, Frank asked me, “How are you today?” I just stood there. How do you answer that question when you have no idea what is wrong with you? I was still trying to figure it out. Finally I said, “I’m just waiting for someone to step in my trap today.” I assured my friends that they were not on my list. I didn’t have a list. I just didn’t feel nice. I still had my joy–there was nothing wrong with my spirit, and emotionally I was fine. I just had something inside me that kept trying to get out. Have you seen the Jack-in the-Box commercial with the menopausal woman? It advertises smoothies to keep you cool and sane. Ha! My method of dealing with “street rat crazy” is so much better….God gives me what I need to deal with life’s problems without having to drive somewhere, with no extra expense, and zero calories!!! I kept to myself as much as possible and listened to inspirational music on my ipod. It is exhausting to feel one way on the inside but to maintain my self control. With God’s help, though, I made it. And I didn’t even embarrass myself! I sure hope today is better!